You didn’t belong to this world at first place
Male driven, male dominated kingdom it is, call it maledom !
The world is cruel and more than cruel it is crafty
First they encouraged you “Bravo! Bravo! Here is a lady
Who has broken the glass ceiling … one who lives on her terms “
My foot! This is all frustration and display of contempt by men
For everything you stood for
Just see even before you were proclaimed dead
The world was already busy doing your post mortem
Each one of them wanted to dissect and dissect it all
What made you tick and why?
You were a challenge to their male world of arrogance
Self assured warmth of safety n security
There is no place for yours or for that matter anyone else‘s co-existence
Leave alone growth in my world of oversized egos.
However brilliant you may be, you were never assessed
Beyond the flesh and blood the world could cast their ogling eyes at.
Nor were you ever inaccessible to their scrutiny and groping in their usual fantasies.
They had in fact so many many names not just for you but for him too.
They at once envied, loved and hated him
Did you ever believe when they declared in unison ‘Indian woman has arrived’
What they meant was ‘you have penetrated in our circle, be prepared to face the consequences’
And there and then daggers were uncovered. Could you see the beast smiling behind their grins?
Men cannot bear the very thought of any one barging in and challenging
His so called intellectual superiority.
How can you be thinking and a woman simultaneously? No way!
You drink and the world drinks with you. You drink with Alparax and you drink alone.
They lament you were LIFE of party circuit.
I hope you didn’t believe a word of it.
They said this many a times before
They said it to numerous ladies and oh god all those nasty things they said
In next breath as soon as backs were turned
You were yet another victim of your image the persona you created,
Nursed by the male all around you
You too burned your candle at both ends.
It did give dazzling illumination but lasted for painfully brief period.
Rest in peace dear and in next birth (Hindus do believe in next birth but)